Issue 37: A Turning Point: Sunday 9/21/2025

Notes on Memory, The Heart as the Compass and Asking 'Show me how good it can be'

It is Sunday and I am in Patong, Phuket in Thailand. This is the day to write an essay and to go to a temple. I woke up and wrote down notes about last nights break throughs and insights as it was a very special night. The word ‘Memory’ was ringing in the echos of my mind as it came to me the night before, having a special secret meaning of how we view the world. The human being is like a computer, with a stack of actions and thoughts, access to some memory, a process flowing, a story we tell ourselves. If you know how a CPU works, this is pretty much the human brain as well. If you’re interested I recommend taking the nand 2 tetris MOOC (massively online open course) on Coursera. It takes you on a journey to explain how a computer works from simple gates to high level programming languages.

Yesterday as I danced in the big open auditorium of a memorable night club located a block away from my hotel. I was looking at the DJ, the people and lights around that AI generated video is changing how the human brain sees the world. This is exciting and rapidly changing our fabric of reality. I felt this excitement to build better tools for creating AI videos. My app AvaCreator just had this great name and it’s already live on the app store, I feel a good feeling about this. I know there are a thousand things I can be working on that are very exciting and promising but the truth is I need to focus if I am going to make anything succeed.

The word Memory came to me, somehow this anime called ‘Memories’ by one of my favorite anime film makers ‘Katsuhiro Otomo’, the same creator of Akira and SteamBoy, came up on my twitter feed. I googled it and found it on Amazon Prime. I knew it was the perfect thing to watch. The world of Anime is magic, human beings free from any limitations can create any story their minds can imagine. This is the magic of anime that has been possible since the earliest examples in the 30s. I loaded it on my Vision Pro and laid down on the surface of the moon at night and looked up to watch the film. A fantastic story about a world renown woman singer that died in 2005 but that preserved her memory in a giant computer and it was now being explored on a rescue mission initiated by a team of astronauts in the year 2092. The astronauts suddenly found themselves living in the simulation, one of them in the role of the husband, with a little girl Emily that was eagerly admiring her father and wanting to be an astronaut herself. The dialog was fantastic, the scifi cyberpunk world vision of 1995 is so resonant. The themes of cypher punk, of the early computer history, of the matrix, of Bitcoin, and Ethereum, echoed in my mind from the night before. I was attracted to dig deeper into the nature of humanity and technology.

My mind came up with memories of reading ‘Transhumanism: Engineering the Human Condition” at the AGI House in Twin Peaks SF, at a reading night meetup came to me. I was amazed that I was so fortunate to be there to read that book and talk about it briefly in the gathering of some dozen brilliant SF dreamers. I felt amazed that I was actually able to travel the world and speak with some brilliant people at crypto conferences. How many people get to do that, to feel the evolution of technology right there in front of them and taking part in the activity. I sensed this amazing significance of this town called Zion, where an Irish Australian Priest created a perfect Christian town one hour north of Chicago, one of the most mystical cities on Earth. How lucky was I that I happened own a beautiful home in this fantastic town. Life is so much more fantastic then fiction.

On the topic of Memory, I finished the first episode of three of the anime and then it was nearly four PM. I decided to grab my backpack, fill it with my drone, a towel, my MacBook and goPro. I put on my gray baseball cap and went out into the hot sunny street of Patong.

I walked up to a temple on a mountain. The walk up there took me up a busy sketchy Thai road, full of buzzing traffic. I made it to the mountain view point, made some amazing drone shots and then explored the Buddhist temple that was white shining against the green mountain side that I had been looking at for the past three months of my stay here. I meditated in the temple feeling deep gratitude for having a deeply full life, of having a good heart that feels the world deeply. I prayed for my dreams to come true of building impactful technology startups. I noticed details of the Buddhist statues. I was reminded of my times in the beautiful Art Institute in my home town of Chicago. When I spent hours studying art from various eras, including Ancient Greece which always resonated with me deeply.

I kept repeating to God “show me how good life can get” today and last night. I started the day with an exercise called “the perfect day” in which you imagine the perfect day happening today, without any limitations. I imagined getting a $100,000 USD investment in crypto at the end of the day to build my AR smart glasses startup. I imagined going to a church, sleeping in late, and ending the day with some laptop writing and activity.

As I was in bed, still recovering and catching up on sleep in the late afternoon, I reflect on how live streaming allows the human consciousness to reach massive number of other conscious beings. How the invention of the video recorder, democratized film making and that anyone can be a film maker or a film star. Indeed each individual human is an endlessly fascinating Universe of their own, and a video of them being, acting, deciding, contributes to the furthering of the computational nature of the Universe. The insight that every event that happens is exactly as it should be, because the universe is a computational in it’s nature, meaning that every instance is exactly as it should be. We can make quantum jumps to be in the Universe we want to be. We just have to believe in it. This is my mission with Manifestly. This is my AI app that allows you to create a manifestation, then it sends you daily affirmations to remind you of it. In my next version, I am making a feature where you can ask your future self a question from the quantum Universe you want to jump in, then that version of you will answer your question to help you bring yourself closer to it.

I watched snippets of YouTube video on a successful startup founder that created a ‘Tinder for Jobs’ sharing his lessons and insights on taking it from an idea to growing it to a startup that makes six figures per month. I realized that this is the time where you can build any startup you really want and make it successful, so don’t be an indiehacker but think big, think really big, tackle a big vision. I also watched a short documentary about the sinking of Japans only super carrier during WW2, the “Shinano.” The dramatic suffering of it’s crew as it sank must have been beyond nightmarish. The tense action of the submarine crew stalking it for hours, evading detection and then striking it with six torpedo hits, then standing still at the depth of four hundred feet under the stalking Destroyers that were searching for it, but because of the lack of sonar had no target to direct it’s depth charges at. The stories of these human beings in this conflict are dramatic and gripping. The history of humanity is much more fantastic then fiction can ever be.

I was reminded randomly of the museum of wonders that was in LA that was the subject of a book I read in college called “Mr. Wilsons Cabinet of Wonder". This was a book that captured the fantastic side of the Universe. I was also reminded of a mysterious death of two TV repairmen that were found dead in the 60’s of Sao Paulo Brazil, who had strange lead eye masks on and who may have been trying to communicate with inter dimensional beings. The topic of UAP’s and beings from other dimensions kept coming to my mind last night. I remember my early childhood fascination with Aliens. When I found myself in the USA, in the libraries, I found that the books on aliens were the ones that to me made the most sense to study out of all the books. I was also fascinated by books like Ripley’s Believe it or Not, which captured the magic of the late 19th century age of exploration and invention so well. I remembered Buckminster Fuller and his book “The Operating Manual for Space Ship Earth” how he talked about sailors as being the natural innovators and the truly most powerful humans that ruled the world and in being in competition with the humans that lived inland. That the activity of exploring the Earth and being forced to constantly invent new things to keep themselves alive and enrich themselves through trade, created the inventions that in our current times, are the same as the technologists creating computers and worlds of software.

All these insights were hitting on my natural attraction to things like personal growth, of science, of engineering, of adventure, of traveling and exploring the world. The thoughts of the book ‘hitch hikers guide to the galaxy’ came to me, I read almost every book by Douglas Adams in college. I was obsessed with him. I was so shocked about his temperament, his heart, his world view in his writings, it was true, simple, and yet so profound. It gave me heart that I myself have some value too in my world view, in my own experience of living. That I too can offer valuable insights through my own natural heart compass. It kept coming to me that ‘the heart has it’s reasons which reason knows not.’ When I felt upset at someone, for treating me badly, it was alright, the heart has it’s reasons, feel it, let it be, let it go. I felt the sweet lessons of my own past of being overly sensitive, overly stressed and anxious, overly worried and fearful. I felt that these things melted away. I know it will be alright and that what will come is better then what was lost.

This is the feeling I am ending this Sunday with. It is a feeling that last night was a turning point, even though I did not find the romance that maybe my heart was longing for. Even though I connected with a few beautiful souls that I imagined were the one for me, one named ‘Iliana.’ To me in the moment, that sounded like The Iliad, and in some way it made sense that the Odyssey was about maturing, and the Iliad is about finding the courage in yourself to find your true love, to overcome the challenges and fear in order to get to your fullest expression of being, with the one you love. Then I met one beautiful star named ‘Grace’ and we danced, she was the most beautiful, it ended up that she already had a partner and was not interested in finding a new one. I let these things go and looked forward to getting sweet sleep, the most precious thing in the world. Today after hiking up to the temple, and then coming down and walking across the beach, then sitting to write this with an iced matcha drink in a cafe, feeling the natural happy chemicals my body produced after a day full of movement, deep insights and creative action. I feel today is a beautiful day. I feel I have a beautiful life and I am eager to get after my dreams with a renewed conviction, intelligence and rage.